Keep On Swimming

 I’m currently in New Hampshire, and I’ve been doing acupuncture here. Ever since my fiancée left me… no, Ever since I had some strokes AND my fiancée left me, I’ve been trying to make sense of things.

For me, that means making my life subjectively worthwhile. Moreover, my fiancée leaving me was very dispiriting, and I worry she saw something I can’t. I worry she could see that I’m not worthwhile, despite my desire.

And so, I feel like it doesn’t take much for me to develop a crush on someone now. Most recently, I found myself having a casual crush on the acupuncturist. Wait. Hold on. I want to remind you that I have some vision troubles, so if you can fix my vision, I’ll love you for life.

Anyway, today I learned that my new acupuncturist is married. I kinda expected this, but I was a little bummed. Also, I saw a photo of my ex-fiancée on my phone today, and I noticed that I was distinctly more bummed. Like having a crush on someone helping me (and being cute!) is therapeutic for me.

And so I’m alone and have like no prospects. But I don’t want to give up. For one, I still love me. And together, we are going to recover. Damnit. Which reminds me of a song: 

OH SHIT IT’S A COVER!

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=TTsoZbRb_ow

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