Where did I go wrong?

A year ago, I was living with my girlfriend — my wife to be — and I was VP at the company where I had been for years. But then I had a few strokes, I was unconscious and drugged for months, got fired from my job, and got left by my fiancée.

But here’s the thing…

I don’t want to give up. I’m not ready to surrender. I still believe good — no, great — things are possible. It’s always darkest before dawn… that’s the saying anyway. I don’t know if it’s true.

My woman left me when I needed her most. Right after my birthday… and she took the dog! It’s like country music! But like Dory in Finding Nemo, I’ve gotta keep on swimming.

I think the most painful part of my ex leaving is that (a) I really loved her and (b) I was SO wrong. I know it was hard for her that I had a stroke. But you know who else it was hard for? Me.

And so now my recovery is all up to me. I was told I’d have a robust recovery. Here’s where that stands:

(A) I appear to have a full field of vision, but my eyes look at different stuff, especially in the middle. My right eye appears pointed inward, but I’ve been told that is correct and that the left never points inward and thus I have double vision.

(B) My voice is like someone who had a stroke, though my speech is generally comprehensible now. 

(C) I have some nerve pain in my right leg, but it’s not too bad. If I did not have my other 2 complaints, I’d probably not even mention my leg, but I want to be thorough.


I’m currently in Evanston Illinois (just North of Chicago), where I’ve done a lot of acupuncture, and I got new glasses from a special eye doctor. Also, this experience was very illuminating insofar as I learned that I can do a lot when I’m not deep in the country. So that was good.

Tomorrow, I’m flying out East, and I plan to go to Maine. Incidentally, I’ve been to most US states, but not Maine and not New Hampshire. I am flying and then taking the train, and I don’t think the train will go through Vermont. I also don’t think I’ve been to South Caroline… yet!

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